When I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep my mind went to something my dad said to me today about Richie Sambora that killed me inside...
"you better enjoy him while he's here cause hes gettin a little age on him..."
.... god ...... I KNOW.... I wish people would stop reminding me that every second is counting down to his last breath and I just... I can't handle knowing that at any given moment I could be living in a world where he no longer exists. there's no place for me in a world like that. I CANT live in a world knowing that out there somewhere hes not breathing, his heart isn't beating when mine is.... I could never live... Even if I was physically alive, I would die inside. he is a part of me. When that part dies, there is nothing left.
Someone told me I need to keep living my life no matter what. I said okay, however in my mind I said "until his heart stops beating, I shall live".........
